When God Seems Distant
Written by Shelley Hitz
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."
~ Proverbs 3:5-6
The circumstances of this week got to me. Doubts began creeping in again. Insecurities within me began rising to the surface again that I thought were gone. Loneliness and longing for my friends and family is peaking. I want to see God open up deep relationships for us in our new location, and I'm still grieving the loss of a friend.
So, when I woke up to a rainy day it seemed to mirror my emotions today. Blah.
Then, I looked out our front window and saw something amazing.
Normally we can see Pike's Peak very clearly from our front window. But, today...nothing. Literally. I could not see the mountain at all. It was almost as if it wasn't there anymore.
And instantly, God spoke to my heart. Just because I can't see Pike's Peak today doesn't mean it's not still there. The mountain is still there. I know it is because I have seen it so many times already. It is just the clouds of the day that have kept it hidden from me - and so it is with God sometimes as well.
There are those bright sunny days where everything seems to be going my way and I can sense God's presence and His voice leading and guiding me so clearly. Then there are other days that seem cloudy and gray, where God seems distant and silent in my life.
It doesn't mean that God's not there. God is still there. He has proven Himself to me over and over again. It's just that the "clouds" of the day have descended over me at the moment.
So in those moments when God seems distant or silent, it comes down to trust - trusting that He's still there, just like I trust Pike's Peak to still be there even though I can't see it clearly from my window today.
What does it mean to trust? Well, here's a definition from Dictionary.com:
1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.
2. confident expectation of something; hope.
3. confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received; credit: to sell merchandise on trust.
4. a person on whom or thing on which one relies: God is my trust.
5. the condition of one to whom something has been entrusted.
And so today, in the midst of the fog, I trust that God is with me.
Do you trust that God is with you, even when He seems hidden by the clouds of life?
The next time that you can't see God - that you don't feel His presence - remember Pike's Peak, and that just because something is hidden from view, doesn't mean that it isn't there.
Father God, thank You for Your faithfulness. Thank You for this reminder of Your steadfastness in my life. Sometimes it's easy for me to get bogged down by life, and forget that even if I can't see You, You remain the same - yesterday, today, and forever. You are even more steadfast than Pike's Peak. You created it! I'm so thankful for You, Lord. Amen.